Afraid To Be Afraid

Someone’s been watching me

For so many years now

First every day

Every other day

Every week

Every other week

anxietyWatching over my meds

So I don’t take too much

For so many years

Overdosed twice before

Still watching over meds

Only two more weeks

Then I am done

It’s the last day anyone comes

To watch over my meds

To ask how I’m doing

Watching over me

They tell me I’m a success story

I have kind of graduated

I am a success story

One more time, then no more

Afraid to be a success

Afraid I will fail again

No one coming to check on me

Two weeks and then

It will be the last day

I’m on my own after that

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Afraid to be on my own

Afraid to be alone

Afraid to be afraid.

7 thoughts on “Afraid To Be Afraid

  1. Seek solace in the wonderful people in this blogging world! Connecting with other survivors is very healing for you. They are also afraid & lonely.I am sure your poems are very healing for you too. Art is wonderfully soothing. Look after yourself and take it one day at a time or one hour at a time if you have to. ❤

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  2. You have shared your feelings and thoughts in such a powerful way. I’m so glad you are getting support from this community. Your relationships here can be helpful reminder that you aren’t alone even though your circumstances will be changing. You are a success story. And that doesn’t mean you have to be perfect.

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